study study study

I am in an intensive neglect-everything-eat-fast-food-cram-your-brain--your-job-depends-on-it type of mode.    Tomorrow I will be taking the CSET Math SubSet I for the third time.   I was 9 points then 15 points away.    Its the ONE thing that is stopping me from getting a job as a real teacher.  I was kinda a faker last year with not being "highly qualified."   I passed SUBSET II (Geometry & stats)  and this is the last tough hurdle.    Its to the point that I am sick of it.  I thought I ma have passed last time, thinking, i can squeeze in nine measly points.. but then found I am now further with 15 points away.     

And here i sit studying formulas, theorems, inductions, matrixes, dot products cross products, vectors, proofs.   My brain is swimming.    

 And every so often it clicks I look at my notations,  I look at my computer screen (there are some great resources) and I get it.  I really do. And then as I sleep it slowly seeps out of my brain.

So pray for me today, tonight, tomorrow (5 hours in a freakin' freezing room with ten pencils and a water bottle w/o the label) and pray for my nerves, and the peace I will get when my results come in next month.   Just pray I don't fall apart.   I am so sick of jumping through these hoops.  Its like I can see the other side....  but through a telescope.  

I finally completed a project...

Just about a year ago... I visited one of my bestest friend from Vanguard and her newly married apartment living. She was showing me what a great idea it is to create frame artwork she did. we looked at her creation, and at the O'Dell's creation and a few inspiration walls.      And then we decided to head over to Paper Source gift wrapping department.  

I could spend all day there, i know (for a FACT) briana still frequents there quite often.

So now a whole year later.. i finally get around to it.  I guess probably because of the fact that I don't have a job.  Well a consistent job.

Drum roll...  here you go!

***EDIT*****  Here's a close up one....

a few shots of my handy-work.  Well,  Tad's handy work mostly.  Major thanks goes to my very patient husband.  Our first experience with a wall mounted level.

There's our lovely Target desk.   If you look really close you can see my Bad -A super dorky pen holder I made from recycled floppy disks from the Vanguard Days. (remember those)

  

Look on the inside and you'll see an inscription reading 

"Alisa Bernal's Disk  -  Box #88"

ON DECK FOR MY NEXT POST:  

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU BUY COMPUTER DESKS FROM TARGET.

i suck at organizing...

and Tad most definitely does not suck at it.   Except his idea of  "organizing" is the trash can.   So I am in desperate need of organizing all my craft mediums.    

The little table that holds my oil paints and aisle are overflowing.  So in a corner are my fabrics, threads, yarns, beads, ribbons,  scissors and other tools in milk crates a "borrowed" from my middle school last year.  And ever since "The great FALL" of our desk (more on that to come) (imagine you HAD a desk.. and then... you DIDN'T)  there are stacks of electronics, papers, folders, books, irons,  CDs .....  everything has been compacted in this itty bitty apartment.  I have a lot of storage units, boxes, bowls, i just got them at different times and for different needs, so nothing matches or looks good stacked.  It looks like a bad yard sale up in here.

I need Martha Stewart or Rachel Ray to come over here with like supplies from IKEA or TARGET and get everything in cute matching baskets, buckets and jars.  And then Tad could breathe.

 

Today I created something new.

I taught myself some new stitches by looking at the craftsmanship on etsy.com 

 and i came up with some rea

lly cute bookmarks.

   

I've been using this one that I made last night. 

 

Its just so darn cute,  except, there are plenty of mistakes - and tracing lines and frayed edges etc. . . 

 so this one stays with me.  but i'm working on more of these and will add them to my site next week probably

God Bless the Kindergarten teacher

Because Lord knows its a hard job.

 

Today I was awoken with a call to come in for a half day at BLANK Elementary for Kindergarten.  I walked in thinking,   I can handle this,  I subbed a few Kinder classes two years ago.  Cake.   

Wrong.

First of all, to all you primary teachers bless your little patient heart and consistency with your morning-carpet-calendar-wall time.  For those of you who forgot what its like to be in primary grades - This is time you sit on the carpet and talk about the days of the weeks, months, weather, counting days, letters, counting by 2s and so on, songs and sayings that help you remember all these.   What I love about Kinders and carpet time....  They have no shame to tell you you're wrong.   Wrong order, wrong pointer, wrong song, wrong placement of the straws.   Shameless these guys are.

 

Next bit - Complaints.  Do I really need to know about kid across the way that looked at you the wrong way or girl next to you that took over your job of paper passer outer or can we deal with that ourselves?  Do you think I, who have been here for little over one hour really knows the true story behind why your crayon has presented itself if such a disparaging manner?

 

Next bit -  Alphabet - I was quickly reminded that it is only the beginning of the year and most of kids don't know their alphabet or phonics.  This was the first time most were introduced to the letter U and how to make the rounded bottom to that letter.  And some could not grasp it  giving me V's instead of U's. They are like little sheep lost in the wilderness.   Please someone, teach them.  I know i don't have the patience.

 

Recess - In a line that is around the corner on a far away blacktop, what am I to do about a line cutter.  Get over it, everyone to the end of the line.

 

Reading a book -  is sooo the hardest when its upside down, sideways, every-which way just so the class can get a gander at the pictures to a story they will probably forget tomorrow.

 

All - in - all....  that goodness It was a half day.  And as if God was laughing at me, i went home and checked online for sub jobs...  there was another day and another kinder class tomorrow waiting for me.

 

God Bless the Kindergarten Teacher.

More ETSY news.

I updated my etsy store with two of the onesies i've been promising pictures of.   Go and check them out.

This first one is Monogramed for dear Molly i have another curly one, but i didn't have the time to finish it  ...and i think i lost a lot of blood on this one.   Don't worry (megs, not any on the shirt, and i used lots of spraynwash)

I also made this adorable little flower one that I gave you a sneak peek on friday.  I went looking for something i could deconstruct... the whole fabric is a bit overwhelming, but each flower is really cute, i'll probably make more from this fabric.

Anyone who has been lost in F & M fabrics off of niles knows that sigh when finding that perfect fabric...  after wandering aimlessly and taking a tangent to ogle ric rak   Suddenly,  there it was.  Hiding in the back of the $3 isle, leaning in a huge pile against other florals and brocades just waiting for me.  ONE TOUGH COOKIE.   So cute and so worth the hunt.

Also, since that money from my previous sales has been burning a paypal hole in my pocket i went and bought the CUTEST purse I've had my eye on fo months now!!!